can't believe the last post on my journal here was more than a year ago. well, it's not as if i know someone would want to hear something about my ever boring daily life.hehehe

anyways...
i don't feel okay...im currently multi tasking now. chatting..doing this journal, updating my facebook and posting something on my blog. how busy i can get? hmmmm
oh, i forgot to include how i am trying a lot of sitting position just so i wont feel any pain on my tummy..arrrggghhh...

hmmmmm...by the way, just in case you feel like reading some of the stuff i write..
please pay me a visit on my blogs...

[link] - that's my poetry site..
[link] - my daily ramblings..well, not actually daily.okay, just my whines... hahaha

hmmm..u must be wondering about my mood..up there..yes..there.. hehehe,says i am depressed. well, not actually depressed as in depressed..just feeling melancholy that it..showed in my latest poem. hmmm...

one thing just popped into my head...i need to find time to draw..

well well...


how would you start saying something, when the mere fact of thinking about is driving you in tears...


how sad..

how painful...

i can't help it...

im hurt...i don't want to pretend that everything's okay...

I'm done being the ever understanding girlfriend...

i feel like im starting to lose every inch of me, because of the relationship..
but then again, i allowed it..because i was happy about it...

but when the water reaches the rim...they tend to flow..

just like emotions...

but unlike water that's being poured in the glass...
i kept almost everything inside...now..emotions are stirred..it burst.. not that i can't stop it...but i let it go...

yet...after that..im still in pain...

now, what should i do..?

damn..

ever been in a situation,when you feel like you're slowly falling..without knowing when to stop and where to fall?...
then suddenly you'll realize it's nothing but a dream.but you can't stop thinking, "what if i fall flat on the ground?",
"what if i am forever hanging?"

somebody once said, "life is a tragedy when seen close- up, but a comedy in a long shot."Indeed, we never know how painful and tragic the life we are living because we are too busy making the most out of what we want to see.We tend to "feel" life, by doing so, we are forgetting how is it to actually live life. I'm not saying, we have to take everything so seriously. But more on, knowing how to live without turning our backs to what really matters.

"The love we give away, is the only love we keep."
We can never love somebody without knowing we have certain amount to give away. I'm not talking about "love yourself" thing here. I'm talking about knowing your limitations, knowing as to what level you'll be able to give that feeling..It's a matter of being secure while giving a piece of you to that lucky one. We may never be able to understand what love really is all about, but at least, in our own quiet moments, we'll know that what we have given is more than enough.

somebody learned that i have a dA account... sweet.. :-P

anyways..must i advertise..?

lemme think...

now..what made me decide to write something here, now?

hmmm..no reason..

i remember somebody asking me to try this..little he knows that i have an account already..problem is..i lost my password..and i am so lazy to try to retrieve it..


anyways, i better be sleeping.it's 15 before midnight..i have to wake up early..or i'll be damned..